apsal nih...?

For the past 2 years..aku takut tuk face the reality. Banyak yang aku fikir...tanggapan org ramai terhadap aku as a single mother...risau kalo kwn2 terfikir aku cuba tackle hubby dorang...risau pakai baju cantik sikit...org akan kata aku nak menggatal...risau org bercakap akulah punca anak2 terpisah ngan abah dorang...thats one of the reason aku malas nak kluar rumah that time, kalo ada kwn2 nak datang rumah pon aku banyak bagi excuse...dalaman aku tak kuat sebenarnya taim tu...Ive nobody to talked...really down...

But, now....I think Im strong enough to face the reality. But, when somebody close to my heart ask me to look for husband...still, aku masih rasa cam nak dok lam rumah...xmo kluar...xmo jwb tepon...xmo keje...I dont know whats wrong with me.....???